Can this be real!?!

This is the question that plays in my head over and over again. Can there really be a little baby growing strong and healthy in my belly?!? After wondering if it would ever be possible for us? A life we created that will finally be our little baby we get to hold very soon?!
As some know my appt. was supposed to be today for my 10 week scan. Well after the different cramps I have been having the past few days. And then this nausea becoming an on/off thing after being every minute of every day the past 3 weeks or so I had become a bit panicked. I think it was also the fact that this has been the longest I have had to wait to see our lil Pea again. As Chris said to me, we got spoiled with our weekly scans at the RE's office. These had become my weekly comfort. So anyways on Tuesday my Mom mentioned if I was that nervous why not call and see if they had any openings for Wednesday. And they did!
So Chris and I went yesterday morning. I was trying to stay somewhat calm but I was extremely nervous. I really thought at one point I was going to throw up in the exam room while waiting for Dr. G to come in. He finally walked in carrying the Doppler. I told him I was nervous, which he could obviously see. So he said, well let's go show you your baby then! (so much for the Doppler which was just fine with me!)
So he walked us next door to the ultrasound room. Once I was laying down he started rubbing the wand on my belly and I just couldn't look. Finally he says look here, there is your baby's strong little beating heart. I finally turned my head and there was lil Pea. Just as strong as ever! And then the most amazing thing happened. Lil Pea jumped for us twice! It was the cutest most amazing thing!!! Just pushed those little feet against the sac and bounced!!! (Chris, being mister comedian himself, said baby was jumping up & down trying to get my attention to say, here i am!! now stop making us crazy!! lol) Now Dr. G's machine is nothing like @ the RE's office so we really couldn't see the arms and legs or much definition. But our appt. with the Perinatologist's office is in 2 weeks and I have heard they have very nice equipment for some great pics..
So I finally slept like a baby last night. I am trying to convince myself that this is really happening for us. After thinking & wondering if this would ever happen I am trying to convince myself now that it is. Dr. G told Chris I am not going to stop worrying so much until I can feel lil Pea every day moving in my belly. But even then I have been told by friends I may still worry when baby is sleeping or doesn't move for awhile. I have decided I am going to buy a Doppler. I have been referred a few good one's and if anyone knows of any other's that they have used or a friend has that works really good please let me know. This way when I do have some new cramps or anything else I am worried about I can use the Doppler and be reassured by the sound of lil Pea's heartbeat.
Chris tryed to video our exam in hope's that we would get to see lil Pea move but unfortunately with the fact that their machine is "not the best" and the screen being so small the video is not very good. But I put it with all our pics of lil Pea which you can see in our album link on our blog.
Thank you again for all the support and prayers from everyone. It means so much to us.
I also wanted to wish the best of luck to my friend Lauren & Geoff on the possible delivery of baby Carson today. She started having contractions every 5mins this morning so it looks like little Carson might be here today! Wishing her the best of luck with delivery. I know she is hoping to do everything natural, no drugs. I hope everything works out and she get's to meet her beautiful healthy little boy today!♥