Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Paranoia

Yes, Paranoia is officially settling in. Today I have been cramping on and off all day. And of course I am freaking. I have been cramping since the day we found out almost 2 weeks ago, but usually at night. Also until my numbers have been good the last two times I really didn't pay attention to any cramps because I didn't have any hope for this PG. Now that my levels were again raising good Monday new hope has settled in.....along with the Paranoia.
My last PG I also had cramping the first 2 weeks when things were still progressing as they should. The doctor always said that it's normal as your body is making room for baby. Which totally makes sense. Thing is since it has been 7 months since I was last PG I almost forgot the difference between the good cramps and the bad. So I just keep reminding myself we are doing everything possible at this point to make this PG work. I take my Folbic twice a day, my prenatal, DHA and also my progesterone suppositories twice a day. And can only have faith and pray this one is here to stay for 9 months.

So I'll say the mantra.

As far as I know, I am pregnant today. There's nothing I can do about yesterday or tomorrow, so I need to focus on being positive - because right now, at this time, on this day, I am pregnant.

Friday couldn't be here soon enough.

8 comments:

  1. Love the marta! Stay positive! It's all about today...now...one day at a time. xo

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  2. Love the mantra as well...keep staying positive - we are all sending you prayers and positive vibes for a great appointment on Friday! on a side note -- can you let me know if you customized your blog background or did you get it from blogger? I want to change mine up a bit but don't really like any of the standard templates!

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  3. Your mantra is perfectly said.
    Agreed with Jodi...One day at a time...
    xo

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  4. you are completly right, i had the same cramping feelings and she told me its everything moving around and your uterus getting bigger, thinking of you xoxo

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  5. I'm so happy to hear your numbers are still rising! I will continue to pray and I can't wait to hear how your appointment goes Friday!

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  6. I can definitely understand being paranoid, but staying positive like you are (as tough as it is) is definitely the way to go!! Hubby and I pray for you, Chris and the baby every night before bed. Praying extra hard for Friday and a successful U/S!!

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  7. At the end of you blog you hit the nail on the head! You can't control a lot of things so do your best to just take each day as it comes. You deserve to enjoy your pregnancy - and you will. I'm sure as time passes it will get easier but the worries never completely go away. Just listen to your Dr. and stay positive. Our fingers are crossed for tomorrow. I will be anxious to here. Text me bc we are going out of town and I won't be able to check email.
    xo

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  8. I am so glad that things are looking up. We are praying for you! Keep positive.
    Xoxo

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