September 12th

Angel baby,
We will never forget you. Your estimated due date was September 12th. A day I think we will never forget. I know you were not yet a fully formed baby, but your little heart flickering on that screen was definitely a life. Your life. The life your Daddy and I created. The life we one day couldn't wait to meet. Who's eyes would you have had? You probably would have been a tiny little thing like your Mommy and Daddy were when they were younger. Your sex was already determined at that point, would you have been our little boy or girl? Maybe it's easier that we will never know. For whatever reason your life was taken from us. And I hope your soul is now in a happy place.
I try not to dwell on the fact that this day was supposed to be the most amazing day of our lives. The day we finally would get to introduce you into this world. To meet you!
But we have such great news! We now have a new lil Pea growing inside. Your brother or sister? We will one day tell them about you. About your short time in our lives and what an impact you had on your family. We continue to be grateful that this new lil Pea is growing stronger each day. We hope and pray so much that we can keep this one. We have so many family, friends and even people we have never met praying for your brother or sister. This means so much to us.
So take care our Angel baby. We wish you were here with us. Know that we love you. We remember you today, as will we always. We love you and miss you more than words can ever describe.
Love,
Mommy & Daddy
*One of our friends made this after you left us. It made Mommy cry again but with a smile. I hope to hang this one day when I can look at it without tears and smile at you.*

EDD

I totally forgot to mention. Going by the 1st day of my last period our due date was April 30th. However today when I asked the tech she said the machine gave us an EDD of 05/05/2010 from the measurements it goes by. Seriously?!? I think that will be the BEST 1st Mother's day present EVER!!!!!

Another answered Prayer...

WE HAVE A HEARTBEAT! 118bpm which doc said is good. It was flickering so fast! I can't remember exactly but this one looked a lot quicker than our last baby. And to my surprise we were able to HEAR IT!! I have been waiting for this day forever. To hear that thump, thump, thump of the life you created beating inside you. Of course this brought tears to our eyes.
Sac I believe measured 6wks 0days and Fetus measured 6wks 4days. So the machine evens it out to 6wks 2 days, but the tech told me at this point they really go by the crown to rump of the baby so more than likely go by 6wks 4days! Which means we passed our 1st hurdle!!! This is such a relief to me but at the same time we are both of course very cautious still. Especially after doc asked if we had a heartbeat last time. (even dr's I guess forget things) I reminded him yes last time with my OBG we saw a heartbeat @ 6wks 1 day and then when the spotting started 1 1/2 wks later ultrasound showed the heart had stopped and fetus measured about 6wks 2-3days.
Of course he can't really give an answer as he was not seeing us for that PG but he said he thinks so far this PG is looking very good. We can't help but feel some excitement now. We know we are still a bit away from being out of the 1st trimester but as the weeks go by and heart rate and development continues to be great our chances of miscarriage lessen each week.
I told him about my cramping from my bowels and he said it looks like I have some IBS issues acting up. (guess he could see from the ultrasound) Then when they went to look at my ovaries they could barely get a view of my left one! Bowels were obstructing it!! The tech tried without hurting me too bad, as this was very uncomfortable to say the least, but wasn't able to measure it. Which I guess wasn't that big of a deal to get. She said you poor thing. Ouchie! Needless to say I was uncomfortable after that until I finally (TMI) had a bowel movement a few hours later. Doc said I could call my GI doctor to see if there is anything they can do, being that I'm PG. So I called and got an appointment for Thursday, which happens to be when we go back for another ultrasound with my RE since Chris is on shift Friday. I did make sure to ask doc if these horrible cramps and IBS can interfere with baby. He said no, but for me it will be very uncomfortable so that is why he said I can see if my GI doc can do anything.
Doc also said there was some fluid but he said that is from the placenta attaching to my lining?? This of course freaked us out but he said it's nothing to worry about. Anyone heard of this? I'm surprised I haven't googled that yet. lol I'm not gonna lie, I did google the heart rate. Seems to be right on track. Poor baby, I hope I don't make it too crazy these next 33 weeks! ;-)
So now I am debating if I should sign up once again on babycenter.com to start getting my weekly updates?? I know I'm not going to be naive like last time and register with Publix baby, Huggies, ect.. I still get things in the mail even after I took myself off. I just don't want to miss anything with this PG if it is going to be a good one. But at the same time I know we need to wait. Even if it's just for another 3-4 weeks. By then I will be over 10 weeks. If things are still perfect in our RE's eyes I will make myself relax and truly enjoy every moment.
Thanks to everyone for your prayers. They are making all the difference. Now we continue to pray and hope our baby's beautiful heartbeat is even stronger next week!!
*new pics are in our Album under Lil Pea*