32 more days?!? *gasp*

Tomorrow will be March 30th. Lil Pea's DD is April 30th. And the days continue to fly by!! My anxiety level, it can get pretty high lately!! I try not to focus too much on what I still need to do, but many of you that know me well.....let's just say easier said than done for me. lol
I also try not to allow the many thoughts that run through my head bother me too much, as I read in my pregnancy books that these are common and normal thoughts to start having as your DD approaches. But I still get them. I am a bit of a control freak. And we are about to be faced with MANY things I cannot & will not be able to control. Like labor. And how she will be and how we will be as parents. Sure we can control these things to an extent. But we have no idea how my labor and delivery will be. As I have learned the past few months, every woman's L&D is SO different than the next. And we also won't know how she will be or how we will be as parents. All these unknowns have my anxiety level a bit on the high side lately.
Also as uncomfortable as I am getting I think I am going to miss having her in my belly. Or maybe not since I will actually have her in my arms?! It is still a bit surreal that she is a real little baby in my belly. All the videos we have seen and yet I can't imagine one of those coming out of me?? Okay so maybe that sounds weird or maybe you felt this way before you delivered too? And my newest symptom is a sore spot on my belly. Actually two spots. I started getting nervous but two of my friends said they felt this towards the end of their pregnancy. It kinda feels like a bruise would or sore muscle. It's probably cause this little girl is already so strong and can really punch sometimes!

So this Friday I had one of my now weekly visits with Dr. G. Everything still looks good. They did the Group B test. Didn't know they were doing that but hope things looked ok down stairs! lol I need to get a mirror for the shower! ;-) I cannot see there at all anymore!!
I also expressed to him my nervousness about labor, but mainly about getting a 4th degree tear. (Warning: If you are or want to become PG DO NOT google 4th degree tear. It can cause nightmares) I used to work for a colo-rectal surgeon years ago, and unfortunately learned a bit too much info on this. And as uncommon as it is I do know of two women that have had it happen to them. Both ended up having to have an additional surgery to repair it. This is so horrible and really freaks me out! I just want to enjoy her once the pain of delivery is over. I don't want to have to be on pain meds and worry about an additional surgery. Isn't being a new mother and getting over the trauma of just giving birth with no drugs (if I can do it) enough?!? lol Ok enough about that. No need to work myself up again. Repeating to self and what Dr. G said, this is very uncommon and will hopefully never happen to me. But just in case we are going to start doing the perinial massages, even though they are not proven to be 100% helpful. Like Dr. G said, it can't hurt. We learned about these in my Bradley class. Anyone else hear of this, done this or had experience with it possibly helping during delivery?? They also do this during delivery to avoid tearing, but say it can be done the last month before delivery to help also.

Some exciting news, we put the car seat in!! Here is a pic I took with my phone. Also started putting together my bags for the hospital! Just need to go get some PJ's. I don't have any that are button down or loose straps for easy breastfeeding. Going to get that this weekend and then I will have everything!

Friday I will be 36 weeks. We also have our weekly check up. It will be with another Dr. in the practice because Dr. G is out of town (so that means no coming out this week Lil Pea!). We also go Friday for our last visit @ the perinatal office to have our last ultrasound of her. This ultrasound will be to check her position, and also to check her growth and see about how much she weighs!! Of course I feel like she is huge but she will probably be a little peanut. I will also be asking the Dr. about my new sore belly. But I am sure she is going to say this is normal and part of the end of your pregnancy. Funny cause I could never fully understand why most pregnant women would complain so much the last month for it to just be over. I always felt being pregnant is such a blessing. Why rush it and not enjoy it. I have enjoyed this pregnancy. Even through 16 weeks of horrible 24 hours nausea. And even with this new all day uncomfortable feeling from just being too big. But this last month you are just so big there is no way you could just stay like that for very long. And this is why we go into labor. Some of us sooner and some of us later. Let's wait another 2 weeks and see what I am saying. I still haven't gotten to that point of, Please just let her come out!! But I think that's also because I'm so dang nervous about it all. And this will probably not go away so I guess we will see.

As far as her name, NO we still have not decided on one of the three we have picked. (located on upper right corner of blog) Chris has a favorite out of the three. But his favorite was actually different when we first found out I was PG again. (it was still one of those three) So I tell him he is just as confused as me! I'm actually not confused. I love all three names. I just really don't have a favorite out of the three! Not for her. I am really thinking I will know when I see her what it will be. And if not guess I will have to decide real quick either way! lol

This past week was also a very sad time. One of my best friend's mother passed away last Monday after fighting a long battle with cancer. She was young and it is such a sad situation. I am so sorry for my friend and her family. I can't even imagine her pain and hate that I can't do anything to help take it away.
Still thinking of you every day and I am here ANYTIME you need me.♥

**you can check out new pics of my HUGE belly by clicking our Album top left corner of blog, then go to Lil Pea's album**
*also special thanks to Jodi for my new header! ♥ it!*

34 weeks! Only 42 days to go!!

How Far Along? 34 weeks

Total Weight Gained/Loss? 22 pounds last visit

Maternity Clothes: Mainly all maternity, I even had to buy a pair of maternity scrub pants!

Sleep: Pretty much sucks! lol It's just to hard to sleep good waking up several times to pee, not to mention the 20 something pounds laying on top of you!

Best Moment of the Week: Finally getting my Glider. Wish I could take it to the movies with me tonight. We really want to see Alice in Wonderland, as our movie nights will be limited once she is here. But those damn movie seats SUCK when your pregnant!!

Movement: Yes, all the time.

Food Craving: I was craving a piece of this banana dream cake from Too Jays last night (thanks Amy). So we went there for dinner and what do you know, they are f'in OUT of banana dream cake!!!!

Food aversions: No.

Morning sickness: Disappeared around 16 weeks, thank goodness!

Labor Signs: nope

Belly Button: Still kind of in, maybe it won't pop.....hmmm, doubtful....

Stretch Marks: none (whispered with fingers crossed)

Wedding rings: still on

Exercise: I'm not gonna lie, I'm just NOT in the mood anymore. I need to get my ass walking more so Lil Pea doesn't wanna stay in there forever!

What I miss: my feet! lol They now look like sausages every evening. Oh the cankles! ;-)

What I'm looking forward to: Dr. visit next week, should get another ultrasound to check her growth and see how much our Lil Pea weighs!!

Other NEW news this week: We had our breastfeeding class on Monday and holy crap!!! There were over 50 people in this class!! We were expecting to be of the very few. I am sooooo glad we took this class. It was from 6pm-8:30pm. We saw over 50 different boobs (chris jk's he was disappointed in the selection! Men!) and a bunch of videos. Plus so much information. I definitely feel more confident about breastfeeding. Still nervous but definitely happy that we took the class.

Favorite item bought this week: Just returned a bunch of duplicates from our shower and got a bunch of other stuff that wasn't bought. That's about it, this lil girl already has so much! She did NOT however, get any bathing suits, so I am thinking of going to Macy's tomorrow to buy this VERY CUTE lil two piece I saw there 2 weeks ago but wouldn't buy until after the shower.

The belly is definitely getting bigger by the week now. I can't wait to see how much she weighs. I'm a little scared. lol She will probably only weigh 5lbs and I'm thinking like 7lbs already! ;-)

I really waddle now. Probably funny to watch. I think I resemble one of those weeble wobbles.

And I drop everything!! Which means it need to be picked up. UGhhhhhhhhh!!!!

As uncomfortable as I am getting I'm still not ready for this to be over. I'm sure in 2 more weeks I might be saying different. I told Chris I must start my bag packing this weekend. I still need to go shopping for a comfortable set of pant PJ's. I did get a nice comfy robe. I actually didn't have one. Got it at Macy's a few weeks ago on sale. Pink. ;-)

Such a great week!!

Such a busy few weeks I haven't had time to do my weekly blog!

Let's rewind to the weekend before last when we had our Maternity pics done on Sunday. As predicted a cold front came through. It was freezing AND super windy. I was feeling disappointed but our photographer, whom my friend Sara referred to me, was so nice!! She actually works full time and does photography as a side job. She just started getting into it so gave us a great deal compared to every other photographer I called. It's a bit more expensive to do location shoots than just go to the studio. Which I was beginning to think I should have done since the wind was throwing my hair in my face every second driving me crazy. Along with the fact I was freezing. BUT I love outdoor pics and even with all that the pictures came out amazing!!! We love them. I only wanted like 4 or 5 good shots of the two of us and just me and the belly. She definitely got 4 and more! She took almost 400 and sent us a CD with 84 edited pictures that came out great. If you would like to check them out click here. This is the website as I still haven't had a chance to download them all from the CD she mailed to me.
The password is babygirl

The work week came and went last week pretty quickly as I couldn't wait for our shower Saturday! Which turned out PERFECT!! The weather, the place, everything the girls did!! It couldn't have been better. As most know we had a co-ed shower. And we had quite a turn out! Now I have my 55 thank you cards to start writing! lol The Grandmothers & Aunts to Be did such a great job on everything. The weather was so nice. Not a cloud in the sky and cool out but not too cold. And I love the patio area at Tree Tops park, which is were we decided to have it. I've been to two or three party's there and it's a nice spot. Thanks to my two photographers for the day (Lauren & Olivia) we have over 200 pictures from the shower! If you would like to see them click here for Our Baby shower album. Be warned, there are a lot!! lol
Out of all those pics I do not have a picture of a gift that was made for us by a friend. We have been a bit of a support system for each other as we were both seeing Fertility doctors together. I have known her for many years and we happened to start seeing an RE doctor at the same time. She just posted a new blog and has a picture of it on there if you want to check it out click here. It was very thoughtful and super cute! As were so many gifts Lil Pea received!!

Yesterday I had my monthly checkup with the Doctor. Everything is still going great! I now start going every 2 weeks!! How the time is flying!!! I get a bit anxious when I think we have less than two months (7wks) until she will be here!! (give or take)
I made sure to ask him if he will be in town around April 30th. He laughed and said yes. I will get on him some more when I go back in 2 weeks. My friend Lauren was able to talk her way into him giving her his cell number so that even if he wasn't on call (he has 2 other partners) he would still come deliver her baby as long as he was in town. I plan on trying to get this also. We love him and really just don't want anyone else to deliver her.
Some new symptoms........lovely cankles!! lol It just started happening about 4 days ago. And now they are there every night. Not too bad, but noticeable. Of course doc said this was normal as I already knew from others who have had this in the end. Also every day I just can't imagine I have over a month of growing still!! When I walk now I some time's feel like my stomach will fall off! I have been trying to wear my SIL's belly belt for support if I go for a walk. It does help.

Last night (chris was on shift of course) I had cramping all over my belly until I fell asleep. Even when I woke up to pee it was still there. But when I woke up this morning it was gone. So I asked my friend if she thinks I should call my doctor and she said probably not. All they will say is to monitor it. So we will see if it comes back. I do get my IBS cramps but this was all over, not just lower. So I'm pretty sure it was not that. I'm thinking it's my body slowly preparing.

I did have my first dream about her. Which was totally weird of course. I have soooo many weird dreams lately. Anyways in my dream I had that feeling in my stomach, like when the baby rolls when they still are small and have room to do that. For those who have been PG I'm sure you know this feeling. As I felt her roll I yelled and suddenly she came out of my stomach like in the movie Alien! I told you, so weird!! There was no blood and guts though. She was very tiny in my dream. Looking like a 30 week preemie would. And she had dark hair. Like I did when I was born. Which is weird because at our 3D the guy said it looked like she had no hair as of yet. And that is all I remember. We will see what tonight's dream brings. lol

And lastly before I end this post I would like to announce our top 4 names we have for the many of you who keep asking. My Mom swears we have a name picked out and just won't tell. WE DON'T!! But this is our top 4. And we are still going to give the dreaded baby name book one more look over soon.
PLEASE keep negative comments to yourself as we do not want this to sway our decision. This is mainly why we haven't given these names as people have been asking. We want this to be our decision.
I'm just putting them in alphabetical order.

Emery
Kailyn
Miley
Skylar

and I would love to say we have a top 5 with Novalie added to this list but Chris hate's it!! (just couldn't convince him Lauren ;-))